Justin came into my life when I thought I had it going on and had my GPS mapped out. Idolizing my Gap clothing, dream boyfriend, job, car, and latest handbag were no more and I thought, “gee I didn’t sign up for this.” The truth be told, I actually had thoughts of avoiding the pregnancy but what gives me the right to live any more than Justin. Advocating for Justin, learning my rights as a parent and his rights as a special need child is my center of attention.

For no other reason I blog because of my son Justin and all other children that have special needs. It brings me great joy to talk about the things I’m dealing with as well as the things I’ve overcome. I haven’t always verbalized about what it’s like to raise a special needs child, but as I get older I realize how victorious it is to see Justin overcome many challenges. After almost losing Justin in 2005 due to low blood sugar (9) and a seizure, the fear of losing my son was real. Near the beginning of Justin’s life he had so many hospital visits but the older he gets the lighter the demand is so don’t give up parents.

Even though I’m vocal about Justin’s life with me, I’m also concerned of what his life will be like as an adult. The more I grow with him and the disability there are thoughts of what would happen to Justin if anything would happen to me. Then there’s the fright of the meds that he’s on and what would happen to his insurance coverage in the future. I must say my fear has subsided greatly because of my growing in the Lord. The worry of if I’ve sought the best help possible for Justin has also decreased. We all know that no one will take care of our children as we would however, trusting the Lord has been my consolation.

I run off plenty of prayer, love and caffeine daily. I still get cranky and really short at times when I shouldn’t but I’m human and it is only so much I can take. This has nothing to do with my lack of love for Justin so please don’t question that.  I want to scream on the days that he does not meet my expectations. True love is meeting that child just where they are and no matter how many times I’ve said what should be he helps me realize what is now. While taking things to a whole new level it is my responsibility as his mother to have Words for Justin

About The Author

God fearing, loving mother to an awesome young man. Enjoying what I do! Although I'm not the greatest teacher, however raising a child with special needs has given me more degrees than any college university you could think of.

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