Seems as though we are having trouble getting our days together. We started back to school after spring break and the first day went well; Tuesday Dr.’s appointment. Wednesday home again because he didn’t have a good night the evening before. All day I heard this squeal that I often talk about, in the Autism world a meltdown. It went on all day about every two hours, and the first few times it didn’t get to me. Counting to ten didn’t work. I thought should I put my ear buds in and listen to music to drown out the squeals? Over and over hearing this, I yelled! Not at Justin, at God (God where are you? I need your HELP!). I did all that I knew to do; feed, juice, played, sung and nothing seemed to soothe him. Perhaps, the meltdown occurred due to his classical music that was playing. Maybe the violin sound pierced his ears or maybe it could have been Abby’s bark for someone at the door. It could have also been my temperament that he felt. Always in the mist of ugliness you think the worse. I’m ready for bed I thought. Bed for me is my calming place, but after everything is quiet and you reflect on the things that took place before bed; you realize that it really wasn’t so bad. In a special needs world, we as parents have learned to cope because we have to, we have learned too!

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God fearing, loving mother to an awesome young man. Enjoying what I do! Although I’m not the greatest teacher, however raising a child with special needs has given me more degrees than any college university you could think of.

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